It is amazing how your body changes so much during and after having a baby. The hormones raging, the weight fluctuating…blah blah blah….that is all I have to say about that business. lol You just don’t feel like you…and the question always pops in my mind.. will I ever feel like ME again? Who knows…this is my first baby so I am new at this. I think it is kind of scary. You are in a whole different body that you aren’t used to, your hormones are going nuts and feelings are coming out that you aren’t used to and to top it off life has completely changed because now you have this beautiful little human to take care of.
When we got pregnant I didn’t know how I would feel, how much weight I would gain or anything else…i really just had no idea what was going to happen. It is weird to look at myself in a mirror right now and think that hey…this is me. This is my body and now it is time to work. There are definitely things I wish I could have done to make postpartum easier, like workout during pregnancy. Unfortunately that is not something I was really able to do other than the walks. Well that is in the past and it is time to move forward. The worst thing to do is to put all my focus on the past and then dwell in it. This does nothing. I have to meet myself where I am at right now.
The last couple weeks has been especially hard for me…my anxiety and feeling of worry started to creep in like I have never felt it before. At first I thought it was new PMS that I was getting since I had heard that could be all wonky as well. Well it was part of that but it is also just straight up anxiety because I am worried about the future. I am not a person that LOVES change…in fact I put a bit of a worry wort about it and start to second guess myself. Which is awful. Don’t do that..just don’t. lol
I had heard the phrase PostPartum Anxiety and read a little into it and it seemed to be where I was. I have had this fear that something was going to happen to my sweet Jenson. We all know what fear stands for..and that is where I was living. I realized I kind of stopped life when this started to creep in. I kind of just hid away and hoped it would just go away. Well guys…don’t do that either! haha I basically wasn’t handling it. I can’t expect something to go away if I am not going to do anything about it. That goes for everything in life.
I can’t expect to lose weight or feel healthy and happy if I am going to sit around and do nothing. I am the only one in charge of my life and it took me a couple days to snap out of it…thank you Period!! I finally feel like that fog has lifted though. I am starting to get back to who I normally am…the motivated kick ass crazy lady that I am! haha I learned alot the last couple weeks. Clearly I didn’t handle that anxiety well. To be honest …it really threw me for a loop. I wasn’t expecting something like this, to feel like this. I didn’t feel prepared and in turn I hid away instead of fighting it. I let it consume me instead of telling it to piss off.
PostPartum is a crazy freakin journey guys. The hormones, the body changes, the life changes. Everything. We all get different symptoms of it whether it be anxiety, happiness, depression etc. All you moms are doing a wonderful job. We are all different and going through something different but that is OK! The most important thing that I learned from this is not letting it get to me. I should have stood tall and told this crap to piss off but I didn’t. I went down a different rabbit hole and I never ever want to do that again! We have to be brave, we have to fight and we have to show them who is the boss! lol
So I say all these things but you are probably wondering….well Natalie…how in the hell am I supposed to do this?? You keep saying show them who is boss but I need to know HOW! Well don’t worry guys..we are getting there. I know I am long winded…just ask my dad…as he says ‘get to the point Nat!’ haha!
So how do I combat those feelings of anxiety, those feelings of worry? Well let me share what I did….and I hope that they can help you!
So there you go….these are the changes I made and AM making right now. They aren’t’ easy….and not everyday I am doing them…YET. BUT I am getting there. I hope you found this helpful. If there are tips YOU have to help combat anxiety, stress, worry…I would love to hear!!
As always thank you guys for listening! You are all amazing and beautiful!