Health. When you hear that word what do you think of? For me I think of physical and mental health, I think of happiness and I think of a happy life! I have been through quite a lot and the most important thing is that I make choices that will keep me and my family healthy. This is one of the reasons my family calls me the hippie! haha! Which I am totally OK with! In fact this morning Tanner was giving me a hard time (in a loving way of course) about me getting super excited about finding a recipe to make my own sunscreen! ha ha! I just can’t help my self guys…after all that I have been through and all the information I have learned about the products we use on a daily basis and how they affect your cells, organs and everything else in your body I really want to make sure that the choices we make for what we eat, put on our body or inhale are the right choices. I want to give JB his best shot at life, I want him to be healthy and happy! If he is healthy and happy then I feel like I have succeeded at momhood!
So yesterday I woke up and it was very snowy out, the hubs woke up feeling terrible and Jenson slept 7 hours straight!! #win
I decided that I needed to make sure I still got my workout in before I did anything else because I am still trying to get my motivation to stay on track. In other words I have alot of conversations with myself to get at it! Well, I am so glad I did but man my core is sore! lol Sore in a good way though!! I am absolutely loving the Piyo program!! I am feeling stronger and my body just feels really good! I feel like I have more energy and am just mentally happier! However a nice hot bath with some Deep Blue essential oil may be in my future guys haha!
I also had my first online Oils Education Course last night and it went really really well! Krista, who is helping me get rolling, co-hosted with me and she did exceptionally well! 🙂 She gave me a great tip too! She puts a bit of Frankincense on her neck and roof of her mouth to help her get in focus and get her mind right before a class! I felt kind of all over the place because I was nervous so I went ahead and gave that a whirl and man she was right! I all of a sudden felt very focused! Then I thought…maybe I should be doing that more often! lol All in all I would say yesterday was a great day and I got alot accomplished! Somedays it just doesn’t happen that way dependent on how Jenson is! I am sure all my stay at home dads and moms know that! lol
So tonight I have another Online Education Oil 101 class and I am definitely going to be putting Frankincense on again! ha ha! I have quite the busy day today and I am so happy that Jenson slept well AGAIN! 11pm to 545am! Can you believe that? I am just hoping and praying he keeps going on this great sleep! If he is anything like me…he will because I have always loved my sleep! hahaha! So if everyone can send me the good juju, the prayers and all that so he can? THANKS! lol
If you guys do have an interest to learn more about the oils don’t forget to register!! Don’t have the link to register? Just let me know and I will send it to you!
Now off to get my workout in…yes I am forcing myself because today is ‘Upper Define’ and I have no upper body strength! If you don’t hear from me…get me an ambulance! lol Just kidding guys…I will make it through! …hopefully..lol
EEK! I am officially in Week 2 of my workouts, week 2 of working towards my business/blog and other goals! This self journal has been extremely helpful and I feel like I am making some great headway! I have to say I have quite the journey ahead of me but I am really excited about it because it is my journey and I plan to share it with you all as I go through it. I created a video right after my SWEAT workout yesterday! Check it out! (Still working on my video skills and all you pro’s I KNOW move the video horizontally! Tanner already shamed me for it! lol)
One thing that has been a bit hard the last week is Jenson is now going through his teething stage and he has a small flat spot on the right side of his head. The doctor told us this is completely normal as babies will tend to favor one side over the other. So during my workouts when he is sleeping I have to slyly move his head so he can not keep favoring that side! ha ha! It definitely makes my workouts interesting because I don’t want to wake him up!! Also, the teething…well I found out that Tanner started teething at 6 weeks! ha ha so it isn’t too surprising that Jenson is starting now! Looks like he is following in his dad’s footsteps! lol
Last night he had like a crazy meltdown about it! I felt so bad for him! I didn’t want to give him Tylenol right away as I don’t really want that to be the ‘go to’. I found out that we could give him some diluted Lavender. Rub it on his cheeks and jawbone and we also wrapped an ice cube in cotton t-shirt and let him ‘chew’ on that. Remember that lotion I made for him? Well i rubbed that all over him too just for added support. We ended up also giving him some Tylenol just to completely ‘bomb’ him lol but I don’t think the Tylenol really kicked in till later on. After we gave him the Lavender rub down he noticeable calmed down!! I applied it 2 hours later before we all went to bed as well just to help him over night.
Everything we did actually worked because he slept from 10 to 315am!! When he woke up then he seemed calm and happy and ready to eat! So I fed him, applied another dose of lavender and he went back to sleep until 645am! I would say that is a total win in my book! HOORAY! If you are a mom or dad I am sure you can understand how hard it is to hear your baby cry! Especially when they can’t tell you what hurts or what is wrong! Luckily the doctor warned us what teething symptoms looked like so we felt pretty prepared for it!
Tonight I feel ready if he has another meltdown. It was recommended to freeze a wet wash cloth and let them chew on that (I think that is WAY better than the ice cube!!) and I also have a very very very diluted roller ball of Onguard essential oil blend with some Olive Oil mixed in. So what you do with that is rub it on their gums and it should help kind of numb it to ease the pain! I am hoping I don’t have to use it but I will have it in my tool belt just incase!
****Just a reminder that the Oils Education Webinars are THIS WEEK! So if you have any interest in learning more about how essential oils can help you in day to day life REGISTER HERE****
So about 2 years ago I decided to jump in on Essential Oils. I had gone to a class and learned all about them and this was the time I was working on moving to a more natural lifestyle. I decided to get a kit called ‘Home Essentials’ through DoTerra and it was basically a bunch of oils to help get rid of all the medicine that we had. I have been on a slow process to rid our house of all the crap products (both cleaning and for your body)
so that our bodies can have a better chance at being healthy. Especially with the fertility stuff I was going through it made since to get as natural as possible! I had learned that alot of the products I used on a daily basis affected reproductive organs…seriously!! Isn’t that crazy? But think about it..whatever you are putting on your skin, breathing in or even eating has an affect on your body…so it isn’t so far fetched!! Just crazy! In the words of Jimmy Fallon…EEWWW!!! hahaha I love that skit! ha ha
SO anyways…as I started using them I found that they really are little miracle workers in every bottle! I keep imagining little elves working in the bottles making my life so much better. Is that just me? OK I know I am kind of a nerd!!
They have helped me, Tanner and even Ace with lots of different things and now they will be used on Jenson! PLUS, they smell so good and I love to diffuse them in the house (Citrus Bliss blend is my jam people!)!
This got me thinking…with my huge love of living a more natural and healthy lifestyle (ok we can call it crunchy) it just made sense that maybe I should get more involved into the essential oil life. I recently decided th
at I was going to become a wellness advocate for DoTerra which means I am going to start sharing more about what I do with them, having education classes to help people learn about the like I have learned about them!
With that said…I am having my FIRST education class that my girl, Krista and I will be co-hosting! It will be an online webinar that is live next week and so if you have any interest in learning more about these oils I would LOVE for you to jump on with us!! Just message me and let me know!!
REGISTER HERE to join the class!
So in my self journal one of my goals is to lose weight. In order to make this goal measurable I needed to weigh myself, take measurements and also I did before pictures….that part sucked ass. Not gonna lie ha ha! In order to stay accountable I want to share this journey of postpartum, fitness and nutrition!! Hopefully it will also help you out as well!
I was quite sure what I wanted to do with my fitness regime so I started looking over the programs I had and also had to take into consideration the fact we are in a hotel. The more I thought about it the more I realize that Piyo would be a perfect program for me being that I am coming back from having a baby and I didn’t workout much during pregnancy due to exhaustion and other things.
Another reason is my body has felt super super stiff and kind of uneasy. I know that this is after effects of pregnancy and my body is different now that we are in the postpartum phase of life. Piyo just makes sense! It is an amazing program that is like a constantly moving yoga workout! It is based of stretching and strengthening.
The entire Piyo program is 2 months long and I am excited to see how I grow and change and get stronger! However …today was more of a hotmess than anything! I haven’t stretched much and so trying to hold any pose was more hilarious than anything! If only Tanner was here to film the entire workout today! It would have been quite funny to watch! lol I was saying earlier in another post that now that we have a kid I have to be much more intentional with my time. So once JB went to sleep I immediately got some oils and put them in the diffuser and then threw on the program!!!
So the reason I diffused oils is because I wanted to give myself my best chance and staying motivated during this workout. It is my FIRST workout since I had Jenson and I was pretty nervous and anxious about it! I wanted to help ease my mind but also motivate my self. I went through a blend of the following…
It smells SOO Delicious in here guys!! I think this may be a normal house blend I use because not only does it smells good but I am soo motivated now to keep checking off my task list today! Today was a total win and I couldn’t be more stoked about the days to come! I know not all days are going to feel like this day but that is life! We just have to keep pushing through and not letting out excuses get the best of us! Let’s strive to be our best selves through love, acceptance and caring!
And to make it even better…I think Jenson approves of my new goals OR he is just excited that he is officially 2 months old! Just can’t get over that face of his! I just want to squeeze it all the time! I am so happy that we are making it work where I can stay home with him! I have to say I never thought I would really want that until he came out into the world!
HAPPY 2 MONTHS Jenson Stewart! You are so loved and this Hotmess of a Momma is doing this all for you!
So I started on my Self Journal and it is a bit harder than I anticipated. haha I think the reason for that is because this is all very new to me, you have to really go into detail to really figure out your goals. Which is amazing but also makes you really think! lol
One of my most important goals is the business that I am starting! The reason why is the sooner I can get things rolling the easier staying home with the Nugget will be. However, Jenson has been a little needy the last week! I was reading that this is a common thing to happen between weeks 6 and 8 and he will be 2 months this week! So it all made sense….I believe he must be going through a growth spurt.
My life has been having to hold him most of the day which don’t get me wrong I love love love to hold him!!! But when you are trying to get stuff done it makes it a little difficult so I really have to be intentional with my time! It is such a learning process!
I don’t know how all you stay at home mommas and pappas do it but I am definitely wanting to learn it!! ha ha!! I know I will get there I just have to keep on pushing!
So any ways…I haven’t gotten far on my SELF Journal yet ….I need to create 3 ‘end result’ goals to accomplish and so far I have 1 listed. Whoops. Talk about Fail! ha ha! The reason I say that is my goal was to get rolling on this today and I am 1/3rd the way there! That is OK though!! Tonight I plan to keep working on the goals. The journal is a 13 week roadmap so my end result goals I want to be accomplish by then. That could change but for now I want to just to 13 week stints. If that makes sense! If you are curious about this journal I highly recommend going to THIS SITE and getting one!! It would be fun to learn what your goals are and how you want to achieve them! We could work on them together! 🙂
One of my goals that I am working on putting into this journal is my business! I am working on building this blog/website to become more than what it is now and I am SUPER excited about it! I have so much I want to do and this book, I believe, is really going to help guide me in the right direction! So far it has already helped me reign in myself so I can steer my actions and thoughts in the right direction! I tend to be all over the place sometimes! That may be the artistic side of me….linear is not really in my vocabulary so that means I need to have something help me with that!
Now that the hubs is home I can actually take the time to put my 100% focus on this!!!
If you do end up getting one of these journals comment below and let me know!!
So I have to say my husband is seriously the greatest!! This year is going to be my first Mother’s Day! I can’t even believe that this is gonna be my first ever Mother’s Day! It is really exciting because it took us so long to even get to this and now we have this perfect little nugget! I mean just look at that face!! ADORABLE PEOPLE! ha ha ha! I know..I am partial..
So going back to what I was originally saying…my husband is the greatest! Why? Well the other day I was having kind of a hard day emotionally. Basically lots of hormones running around. I had just gotten my period after not having it for quite a long time and it just really caught me off guard. It was just a weird funk…and well annoyingly it is totally normal.
So he comes home from work with early Mother’s Day gifts! I was so excited! Well first he got me a really nice bottle of Whiskey which I was soo excited to try! Yum! I craved it when I was pregnant so that was a tough one for me ha ha ha. The second gift was this thing called the SELF Journal. It is a book/journal that helps with time management, eating that frog, productivity and goal setting. After getting laid off it really pushed me to realize that it was time to work on ME and do what I really want to do. What I really want to do is be my own boss so that I can travel, do what I want to do and be able to be with Jenson! As I started working on getting rolling with my business I realized that I am all over the place and got really down on myself. I got down on myself because I overwhelmed myself and didn’t know how to get out of it. Well this journal is supposed to help get me to my goals in an organized way! Which is EXACTLY what I need! I am soo stoked to start working on it!!! Has anyone ever used this journal before? What did you think of it? Did it help you?
I think what I am most excited about with this is to help reign in all my thoughts and get my on a nice consistent track to make my goals happen!
Something I have been dealing with my whole life is for some reason I tend to worry about what others think or what others could potentially think about my choices. (This is something I don’t ever talk about..but to be totally honest with you guys I felt compelled to talk about this today)
I don’t know why I do this. . . I realize how dangerous this is and completely DUMB it is too! Why should I care about what others think? Why am I so worried that I will look a certain way to others? I am still working on that to get to the bottom of it but what I am also working on is to let it go. Everyday I talk to myself…ok not in the crazy way lol. I tell myself that I need to do what I WANT to do. I also tell myself lots of positive affirmations and that it is up to me to make the change.
I now have the time, the freedom to get whatever I want going, which is amazing!! Tanner can attest to this that I have been whining/complaining for years about wanting to do my own thing and not have a boss. Literally…I complain about it. What bugs me is that I shouldn’t be complaining about it..complaining gets you nowhere. It just creates your own pity party. NOPE. No Thank you! Not any more…now is the time to get my ass in gear and DO my passion. Put myself out there and work. It isn’t easy to do that but the end result makes it OH SO WORTH IT! I have seen other’s succeed at their passions because they put in the hardwork. Which is so inspiring and exciting!
I think that all of us have fears and some of those fears I think can become debilitating if you let them. You can either get consumed by fear OR you can get out there and start working your butt off and creating the life you want! So which one is it?
Letting your fears consume you will only lead you into a sad life. Honestly…it really will. If you don’t make this life worthwhile then what are you doing? What are those passions of yours? They are passions for a reason ….so get out show the world you are one bad ass chick (or guy!) and make life truly worth living. Is your passion to stay home and garden? OK…well do it or is your passion to get out make a huge change in the world? Or are you somewhere in between? Whatever it is…it is YOURS. So now I am taking my own advice and going to start doing. I can’t let things get to me…and when they do I need to go for a walk and let those feelings melt off of me. We are all human and each day is a new day full of new obstacles and learning opportunities.
So your lesson for the day is this….no more pity parties. Besides those are boring! If you want to make change the first step is DOING. So get up and get out! lol That is what I am doing! I am getting up and stopping from letting my mind tell me otherwise!!
P.S. This blog may have been more of a ‘you can do it Natalie’ blog than for anyone…but I do hope if anyone is feeling down today that it helps you! Today was my feeling down day but after getting this out and going for my walk I am not ready to get back at it and work! Love you guys!
So I wanted to update you guys on where I am with my breastfeeding journey..it has been an interesting ride. Like I told you earlier I am taking fenugreek and brewers yeast. I am still taking those but to be totally honest I haven’t seen much of a change from them. I know that some people had real success with the increased supply but that is definitely not me! haha
I was also told that drinking LOTS of water will help. I have been drinking water but I think some days I just am not drinking enough. So that is definitely something I need to change. When I am out and about I tend to drink less so I need to start coming up with ways to get me drinking while I am out. I think that is probably a very common problem with most people though! I just need a faucet to follow me where ever I am…new invention?
I am going to kind of update my routine to hopefully help the supply because as of now it is going down and not up. So that is something I REALLY want to change!! If I can breastfeed or even just get him to bottle feed with breast milk 80% of the time that would be amazing! I am aware that that could also just not happen. In fact yesterday it kind of hit me at how things are just not going the way I want them too. It really didn’t dawn me how much it was affecting me until Tanner asked why I was so on edge and if anyone knows Tanner it was more of a like ‘wtf dude’ hahaha! Of course I got super snippy when he asked me that…umm excuse me but don’t call me out on my snaptasticness! lol Once I got over myself I realized that the fact that I am not totally ‘winning’ at this breastfeeding thing is really bothering me. I am trying my hardest for it to work. SO WORK DAMN IT! haha! Just DO what I want you to do! OK? Thanks!
I, of course, apologized and explained to him where I was with it all. I would say 95% of time it doesn’t bother me but yesterday that 5% definitely came out. I needed to get the emotion out and move on. So that is what I did and I feel way better and ready to try some more! I don’t know how long I am going to actually give this a go but I am just going to until I feel like it is time to let it go. I decided this morning it was time to start trying out the essential oils. I am sure you all are surprised I haven’t tried these yet but I wanted to give the fenugreek and brewers yeast a chance before I added in more things!
So as of now…add more water, pump 2-4 times a day and add in Essential Oil potions. Hey, at least I will smell delightful! I spoke to my essential oil ladies and got some great advice, along with checking my essential oil bible for what oils would help with increasing milk supply. What I found is Fennel, Basil and Wild Orange Essential Oils are the key! So what I did was created a spray that I can put on my boobs throughout the day. One thing to keep in mind though is that Fennel you can’t use continuously and that you need to take breaks from it OR it can actually do the opposite affect on your supply. I have no idea why that is but that is just what I have learned. So what I will actually do is create 2 different blends, one with Fennel and one without. Then I will switch them every week. Also, I added in Lavender to the mix because it is a great calming oil and with all the action happening on my ta-tas I figured that would be a great add in! ha ha!
Now to help even more I will be taking veggie capsules of Wild Orange and Basil. I was told by a gal that did this to do it 3 times a day. So basically every time I need to take a vitamin I will be adding this in as well. So let’s just bomb the crap out of myself. Sound good? OK lol
If this doesn’t work for the milk supply it will certainly help me with my emotions because of the amazing benefits all of these oils have on your body. So either way it is a win win for me! Let’s just hope my little cocktails I created for myself do the job!!
I am feeling really positive about this journey and honestly…if it doesn’t work I can say that I tried my absolute best and gave it my all. That is in fact the most important thing about anything you want to accomplish. Not everything is going to happen the way you want it to. It just isn’t…life isn’t fair! BUT…I am learning more and more about who I am and what I want. I am also teaching myself that the most important thing is I try my best. I definitely will not be walking away from this with the horrible ‘regret’ that I didn’t try. Who would want to feel that way anyway..? This journey has been crazy but also has been a huge learning process for me! So no matter what the outcome of this breastfeeding is I will be coming out as a winner! Why? Because I have the coolest baby in the world that is being fed, loved and snuggled!
So I MAY have been told several times that I am a hippie and a granola. ha ha and to be totally honest…i like it! I would say my journey with changing my lifestyle to more natural all started from digestive problems. Most of my life I have had digestive issues and about 5-6 years ago I started to get more persistent about figuring out WHY I had digestive issues and that is when I started learning more about products we use, ingredients and so many other things in the natural lifestyle world. It was like a huge wormhole I entered! I just wanted to keep learning more because I was starting to understand why i had so many weird and random problems.
So when I started into my fertility journey i started learning about how there are so many chemicals being used in everyday products that completely jack up your reproductive organs. Then I thought….if that is the case then what else are they jacking up!? I then got completely grossed out and when on a binge and threw everything out and decided I needed to be WAY more mindful of what I am putting ON my body, what I am breathing in and what products I use to clean. I realized that nutrition and fitness isn’t the only thing that is important about getting healthy. So with that said I wanted to share a lotion that I came across that has great healthy ingredients and what Essential Oils I added in for Jenson. So I don’t really think I have done many blogs yet on my love of essential oils but I am definitely going to start sharing more!! I absolutely LOVE them! It all started when I was looking to change out my products in my house with something natural and healthy for me!
I got involved with DoTerra oils and seriously it was love at first site! Ok now I sound a bit crazy but hey it is a good kind of crazy! ha ha!! I love them so much and have found so many great ways to use them!! I used them all throughout pregnancy, pre pregnancy, my hubby has found them extremely helpful and even Ace! Woohoo! Not gonna lie…pretty damn awesome. lol
Ok so getting to the point I swear!! ha ha When I got pregnant I started looking for products for Jenson that were healthy and OK for his teeny little body. I didn’t want to put anything on him that had weird crazy ass ingredients that no one can even pronounce. I want to give him his best shot at life and part of that is being healthy! I came across the lotion made by California Baby. I found that it isn’t filled with tons of crap ingredients and in fact is quite healthy for your skin. I mixed Frankincense, Lavender & Melaleuca Essential oils into the lotion and I put it on the bottom of Jenson’s feet after a diaper change as well as I put it on him after his bath time. So i am sure you are reading this and thinking ‘why are you putting oils in this lotion..isn’t the lotion good enough?’ hahaha I am a mind reader over here! So like I said earlier I want to give Jenson his best chance ever. I started to do some research on what oils would be helpful for infants and found these 3. Well first of all Lavender is everything calming. Doesn’t everyone need that in an infant? lol Well my little nugget has very sensitive skin just like his momma and Lavender is one of those oils that everyone needs in their life.
Frankincense is another great oil to add in there because it helps your immune system (among a million other amazing uses for it) and then lastly Melaleuca is amazing for the skin! So there ya go…I created a wonderfully smelling and yummy lotion for the boo. It is fun to see how relaxed he becomes once I put some on, or if his tummy is upset i can add some on his stomach and it immediately relaxes. I actually decided to use it on myself as well because it smells so darn good!
Does anyone else use essential oils? If so I would love to know what you use them for!!
Breastfeeding is a lot of work people…like more work than I actually realized. After Jenson was born I was told that breastfeeding was going to be a bit harder since he was so early. It actually makes a lot of sense because I basically have lost 4 weeks that women who go full term get of ‘getting prepared’ body wise. Well so did Jenson…coming early there are things that he struggled with and one of those was coordination. Which eventually he will get it and so will I but we were told it would just be a bit more work. So ok…I am totally willing to put more effort into it because I really do want to be able to give him breastmilk!
Well luckily for me Jenson latched pretty easily! #win I would have to say that is because of the incredible lactation consultants I have worked with at PSL & Kaiser!! However, we did have to supplement right away. His blood sugar was low, he was jaundice and my colostrum was taking a bit to come in. The colostrum issue was not unusual though since I had him so early. This was expected – at least that is what the nurses said so I just went with it…so we started the milk train….breastfeed, then formula feed and then pump. Every. Single. Time. Uh my tatas were soo sore people!! Ha ha not just the nipples but my boobs too! Doing that is a lot of work! I was like ‘dang do I have to do this for forever?!’ Lol They said it would help with stimulating everything to get things rolling.
So we kept on keeping on and once we got ‘home’ (we are in a hotel) it was hard to keep that going. Kind of fell off the wagon of that routine because now it was just us and I had to manage not only feeding the nugget and making sure he is waking for those feedings but also had to manage my healing and pain (which I am still doing and am soo anxious to be 💯 again but I know I got to be patient!) as well as making sure we get to the doctors appointments, my emotions because I was post partum as well as being in a hotel! Ha ha our whole routine completely changed when he came which obviously is totally normal but you are never really prepared for it..at least I had no idea how it was going to be…we are all different and the babes are all different so you can’t really plan that it will be a certain way. The last 2 weeks have been really new and a learning experience for all 4 of us. I say 4 of us because Ace our dog is learning to how to share in the snuggles and attention as well!
The breastfeeding has been the biggest struggle just because I am not getting a ton of milk coming in.
We went in for his 2 week appointment and the doctor asked what I wanted to do since my milk is just not wanting to arrive. That is when it really hit me…i guess being able to breastfeed is a big deal for me.
For the longest time I have said over and over that I didn’t really care about whether I can breastfeed or not and that I am more concerned Jenson just eats. I mean the money savings alone with breastfeeding is super nice (obviously) but I had just always been of that opinion. And to be totally honest being able to burn those extra calories from breastfeeding is something I was pretty stoked about!
I realize now that subconsciously my brain was thinking that breastfeeding is way more important to me. We are all different and we all have different things that are really important to us. As you all know food and health are extremely important to me. I want my kid to be healthy like any other parent and I also want to be able to experience that bonding time with Jenson with breastfeeding.
After we left the doctor for Jenson’s 2 week appointment I started to cry….and when I say cry it was like the ugly cry, with a side of sobbing hot mess. I blame this partially on my hormones and postpartum…haha Tanner was concerned and asked what was wrong. I told him that I guess I am struggling with this feeding because I didn’t realize it was important to me. Me crying is what made me realize …oh maybe this breastfeeding stuff IS more important that I have actually been saying…
Maybe it changed when I started to actually do it? I don’t really know when it changed or what..
It dawned on me that this topic is more important than I have given it credit and that is totally ok just something I didn’t know was gonna happen! Ha ha don’t mind the crazy ball of Mess you married love!
Tanner looked at me and was like ‘I knew it was and you just needed to get there for yourself’
He then told me how amazing I was (swoon!) and that we just need to get on a system and do whatever we can to help it come in. As long as we just try our best then we can walk away saying we did what we could. If it doesn’t work after I try my best there is nothing to be upset or regretful about. It actually made me feel a lot better because I was feeling pretty low about it and I am sure other women have gone through those same thoughts. ‘Am I not good enough? Why is it so hard for me? What am I doing wrong??’ I mean not every women succesfully can breastfeed and that is just life and how it is. To be honest…that may be what happens with me…OR things may change. Who knows. .. I guess we will see down the road.
So with that we have made a plan to start the encouragement of the boobies! Woo! My plan will be to pump as much as I can throughout the day to basically get a sense of how much I am making and also be able to measure the increasing amounts. I have been told by multiple ladies that Fenugreek supplement is a great add in and totally helped them get their milk in. So guess what I just bought?! Lol I was also told about brewers yeast is a great one to add in. Well the thought of having to eat brewers yeast makes me wanna barf so I found it in a pill form and I hope that it has the same effect! I will keep you guys updated on that one.
So there we have it – pumping, fenugreek, brewers yeast on top of drinking a crap ton of water and eating some nutrient dense foods…(so i should probably chill on the pizza going forward lol can’t blame it on pregnancy cravings anymore!).
As my Mother in Law told me today ….the most important thing is to stay calm and relaxed during this. Stressing about trying to get my milk come in isn’t gonna help me..amirite!? I mean we all know how stress totally jacked up my bod when I was trying to get pregnant so I just need to simmer down over here! To help with that I will keep going to the chiropractor (which if you are in the Denver area mine is amazing and I highly recommend), morning meditations, blogging to you guys and of course essential oils!
Stay tuned as I will keep you updated on everything but for now I am making about 2.5 oz a day in milk. That is basically one feeding. So lots of prayers and good vibes that I make more!!! Ha ha
If you follow me on social media you will see that I am no longer pregnant and our little boy has arrived! Jenson Stewart Bell was born on March 10th, 2017 and he is just perfect!! The last 2 weeks have been quite the whirl wind and I figured it was time to get back to you guys to share!!
So the week that Jenson came was kind of crazy! That Monday, March 6th, we went in for my 36th Week Appointment. Now if you don’t know about pregnancy appointments they also check your blood pressure and when they did it was high. In fact it was higher than the weeks before! So when the doctor came in she looked it over and said ‘oh you wont be going past 39 weeks of pregnancy with this result because you have Gestation Hypertension’
Tanner and I were like ‘ok we have a plan…in 3 weeks we will have a kid. not a month … 3 weeks!’ We both got excited and I felt so relieved to know that I would probably get induced rather than what I kept thinking would happen…my water breaking at work lol! I could already imagine my bosses awkward response if my water broke there! ha ha
The doctor we saw wasn’t our regular doctor so she told us that she wanted to speak with Dr. Jiang who we were regularly seeing to make sure that she was in the know and if anything needed to be specifically for this change in BP. Well as we were waiting Tanner and I were starting to realize that this little miracle we have been waiting for for soo long is gonna be here in 3 weeks! 3 weeks…that is nothing! Insert slight freak out mode because I am now realizing it is only 3 weeks away! hahaha!
So as this is happening Dr. Jiang comes in with the other doctor..Dr. Stacy told us she was incorrect on this timing and that they actually do not let women go past 37 weeks of pregnancy with Gestational Hypertension because it could lead into Preeclampsia and that is something you absolutely do not want!
Dr. Jiang says ‘ok so next monday…you ready to have a baby?’ Tanner and I stared at eachother and I just uncontrollably started laughing. Obviously everyone was like ‘what the hell is wrong with her!?’ ha ha ha! I couldn’t stop laughing and was like ‘well ok in a week we are having a baby! March 13th…here we come!’ I tend to have laughter when I have nothing to say or am in shock about something. We had 1 week to basically prepare ourselves for this kid. I mean I felt like I was preparing all along but now it was a definitely time frame. The kid will be here next week.
So of course MANY calls were being made to the family to let them in on the exciting news and my Mom was like ‘i am coming out!’ Which was soo awesome! She was going to be able to be at the birth of my little nugget now because we had a plan! I love plans!! Plans put me at ease…destress me! I was starting to get soo excited and now in planner mode. I had to make sure everything was set with work, our hotel we were going to be moving into because of our renovation at the house, make sure family knew the plan so they could be there, get my oils for labor and delivery ready, pack, and the list went on. I was definitely on a roll that week!
Roll on over to Thursday, March 9th and that is where the crazy really started! I get up for my morning bathroom break before I start to get ready for work. Feeling grumpy because I am tired of being pregnant but know I don’t have much longer! YAY for no more pelvic pain! So i am standing there in the bathroom and all of a sudden I just feel water dripping down my leg. I pull my pants off because I didn’t want them to get wet and I was like ‘what the hell is going on…!?’ I suddenly realized…uh I think my water just broke. So it was a sight guys. I am standing in our bathroom, in an empty house because Tanner just left with Ace to go for a walk and I am just leaking water! ha ha! I will tell you ….the water breaking situation was not something that entered my mind as a scenario anymore because well we had a plan! A plan that MONDAY was the day. Not Thursday…MONDAY! lol
So I immediately text my sister asking her about water breaking, how it felt and all that. She calls me and is asking me questions and was like ‘yeah your water broke sister!’ ha ha! Uh ok. . so that happened. I am standing in the bathroom leaking, in shock and of course….I start laughing again. Tanner isn’t home yet, his phone is sitting on the bed so calling him is not in the cards. He gets home and I tell him the goings on and we head to the hospital. At this point I didn’t feel any contractions or anything. So we made sure to stop to grab some food to head up just in case because I hear that is important.
So there we are at the hospital, checked in and I know this baby is coming..just not sure when as I didn’t really feel anything in regards to contractions yet. The nurses there had to do several tests to see if my water indeed broke because I believe Jenson’s head closed the hole to where the water actually broke so not much more fluid was coming out. That defintely changed later in the day. So thursday because a day of waiting. I was hooked up to the monitors, having contractions (but at this point I wasn’t feeling anything at all) and just hanging out until active labor started. Around 9pm they decided to give me some pitocin so we can get the ball rolling since I literally was just hanging out in the labor room watching My 600lb Life. (btw if you haven’t seen that show …it is crazy and you should check it out!)
Around 915pm ish is when things started to happen. Then is when we told the fam to go out in the waiting room as things were starting to actually ‘start’ haha! We told the nurses that our original plan was to not have an epidural but if it came to it that I would consider it. I have never been through labor, obviously, so I didn’t want to completely rule anything out. Especially since sometimes I have a hard time breathing and put my body into a panic state because of it.
I am not going to go to much in detail about my labor and delivery as I am sure you don’t want to hear about the entire thing. However the labor and delivery went extremely smooth and quick. The contractions were intense for me, in fact the nurses were telling me later that I was having big contractions every time and that was why. Not that contractions are ever easy, they feel like gnarly cramps basically. I was able to labor all around the room, on a yoga ball, in the bath tub and the hubby was right there with me and talking through them to help me. Helping me to breath deeply and all that. The bath tub was actually incredible and if you have the opportunity to have a tub in your labor room I highly recommend it. The hot water really relaxes your body and that is what you really need. For me, it was getting late…at this point I had been up since 6am and was pretty sacked out because of the waiting game we played all day! I ended up falling asleep for a bit in the tub while Tanner just sat next to me. I woke up to realizing that I wasn’t breathing correctly because I could feel my face and hands tingly. I knew this feeling all to well because that is the start of a panic attack for me. I get them when I tense my body up and basically ‘forget’ to breath.
Tanner then brought up a point his sister had and that was that if I were to get an epidural right now I could relax and maybe get some rest since it had been a long day for me. At this point I realized that maybe that is the route I need to go. I thought ok I don’t want to get an epidural BUT that will allow me to rest before we go into the delivery stage and then the baby is here and who knows what kind of rest I will get then. I looked at Tanner and said ok lets do the epidural. At first I did have feelings of ‘did I just give up on this or am I making the right choice for my situation?’ I am a stubborn mule and once I set my mind to doing something a certain way I definitely intend to keep it that way, but, this was the time for me to set aside my stubbornness and do what was right for my body, my mind and for my little miracle that was waiting to be born.
Once we got the epidural in I immediately felt my body relax. I actually didn’t realize how tight and pent up my body was. There was some breathing I clearly wasn’t doing correctly which in the end would not have helped my labor at all. I definitely had made the right decision, I was able to relax my mind and body and immediately fell asleep. I think I slept for MAYBE 30 mins? I started to feel the contractions again and the nurses were like ‘hmm you shouldn’t be feeling them so sharply!’ They turned to look at the contraction monitor and were like ‘omg how are you not like screaming’ Apparently my contractions had gotten way more intense and were basically off the charts. This baby was coming and it was coming right now!
At 1:07am it was time for the delivery/pushing stage! We were so close! EEK we were going to meet this little critter and find out if it was a boy or a girl! YAY!!!! Then…1:17am Jenson arrived!! It was quick! In fact it was so quick that our doctors intern that was shadowing her all week didn’t even make it to the birth! He walked in as they were handing me Jenson! haha! Poor guy missed it!
I just couldn’t believe how quick it all was and so emotional! This little baby we waited for for over 4 years is now here and it was a boy!!! I think God gave us that easy and smooth labor/delivery because of how long we waited for him!
What else was awesome was that my gut was right all along! The emotions, the hormones, everything went berzerk and all I could muster up was tears of joy! The little nugget just stole our hearts immediately. I couldn’t believe that Tanner and I created this tiny little life. This little miracle was ours and we were his. I now understand how your heart can just burst when your child has arrived!
I want to give a HUGE shoutout to the amazing nurses and doctors at PSL (Presbyterian/St. Lukes Medical Center) in Denver, Colorado. The care and attention we got was absolutely incredible. We received great hands on help from the lactation nurses there as well and it made me feel so much better leaving to come home! I highly recommend this hospital if you are looking for one to give birth at. I really don’t have enough good things to say about our stay, the nurses, the care and the attention.
Thank you all for the amazing prayers and following me on this crazy journey of fertility and pregnancy! I will be posting more about postpartum and my journey with that as well!
Now onto a whole new chapter of Momhood!
This entire pregnancy has been kind of bananas! Tanner was laughing at me earlier saying ‘you got all the weird symptoms no one talks about!’ ha ha! kind of true for sure! We had our 36 week appointment this week and wow…did we get some new changes then! It ended up being a 2 hour long appointment. We found out that I have Gestational Hypertension. The last 3 weeks my blood pressure has been kind of wonky (and on the high side) and when they tested me this week it was the highest it has ever been. So BOOM. Of course I had no idea what the hell that meant for us so we just sat in the doctor’s office and waited for our Doctor to come in and tell us the normal stuff of ‘oh the baby’s heart rate is strong’ ‘do you have any questions’ ‘see you soon!’
Well..that didn’t quite happen…because of the Hypertension they do not allow women to go past 37 weeks of pregnancy because it could turn into Preeclampsia. If you don’t know what preclampsia is, well it is basically worse than just Hypertension and can cause LOTS of scary issues. So no thanks..let’s NOT go there please. They don’t even like to give it the chance to turn into it once you have hypertension so that is really nice!
So you ask..what does that mean for this pregnancy? Well I am so glad you asked! It means we are being induced on March 13th! That’s right folks…in less than a week we will FINALLY get to meet Cletus the Fetus and find out what gender it is!!!
Now when the doc came in and told us this news I of course immediately started cracking up. I mean who wouldn’t do that?? Thinking ‘oh hey we have 1 month left! So much time to get stuff done!’ to ‘ok we have 1 week to get our shit together’ hahaha! UH what?! Wait..is that really happening? Where is Ashton…ASHTON WHERE ARE YOU? This is got to be a joke! I have to be getting punked right now! My laughter immediately went into tears of joy as I have been so anxious to meet this babe! On top of that my pelvis pain, swelling of my leg and exhaustion has just been really getting to me and I have started to feel kind of defeated by it.
So the next steps until Monday….we will be moving out of our house and into an extended stay hotel. The reason being is on top of the baby coming our house renovation starts Monday too! Monday is quite the epic day already! lol So instead of bringing baby home to our new home it will be our new hotel! Which actually is totally fine…I mean we have a built in cleaning lady for the hotel. Can’t go wrong with that! lol In all seriousness though it does make all this an even bigger adventure and knowing that we have loads of family and friends around us, supporting and just loving the heck out of us has made all of this even better! I couldn’t be more excited to meet this little guy (or girl…but come on …I am pretty sure its a boy…should we place bets?!)
What makes this all even better is that my mom gets to come out and be there at the birth! This will be the first grandchild she actually will be there for as it enters the world! So it will be a special moment for all of us!! The fact that this has become planned actually eased my mind soo incredibly much! I mean yea…now we are less than a week away so it definitely expedited the process but I think that is God’s way of saying ‘it’s time and I am not gonna make you 2 wait any longer for your miracle!!’ On top of that it gave my Mom the option to actually come out to be apart of it which is something I was really wanting but figured it just wouldn’t happen! Tears of Joy? Yes…ok maybe a blubbering mess is more like it.
So here we go…on the the newest adventure! March 13th we get induced and then we get to meet our new family member!!! Stay tuned!